29 November 2012

Love my body.

*insert scream filled with rage and frustration here*

Oh dear, sweet Jebus. I am a wreck.I guess mostly its just my face. It's totally and completely my face.

There's a family picture approaching on Saturday, after my nephew's baptism. So, of course, my face is completely broken out. Not only am I just generally zitty, but I have a Harriet Tubman on the bridge of my nose. What's a Harriet Tubman, you ask? It's one of those deep, deep zits. Underground. Like the underground railroad? Yeah, it's lame. A rich, white girl I worked with once used it.

Anyway, this thing is so fucking big (but not overtly big), it's changing the shape of my nose. CHANGING THE SHAPE OF MY NOSE, you guys.

I don't get these horrendous ones often, but Jesus, they suck.

Of course, I am trying all kinds of things to combat the zits. That may or may not be causing the dry, flakiness of my skin. Trying to fix that may be making more zits.

It's so wonderful!

Also, I am 38. Almost 39! WHY WON'T MY SKIN CLEAR UP?

I just hope it improves before my facial in like 10 days. Those poor Aveda girls don't deserve to deal with this mess.

25 November 2012

So begins the season of post-holiday let-downs.

At least it was brief, this time around. I'm not entirely sure it was even a real let-down. It might have been more that I just needed some goddamn downtime. 

Oh, I was lazy after Thursday. I barely managed to get to the gym yesterday and I didn't go today. Actually, I don't think I was lazy enough. I just don't have the time. There are dishes to wash, leftovers to deal with, cleaning to do (still got that out there), work to do ... stuff, stuff, stuff.

I really hate that I'm looking forward to getting back to work tomorrow, if only to have the comfort of a routine again. My life just gets all weird when I don't have some sort of structure. I eat on a a fucked up schedule, go to bed and get up at all hours ... I swear I had a better schedule when I was unemployed than I do when I have several days off.

After looking at my calendar today (and really thinking about it right now), I'm kind of kicking myself for not being completely and totally lazy these last few days. I don't have a free weekend again until next year. Of course, that's just a few weeks away. Still ... It's all fun stuff. I think. For the most part, anyway.

Come to think of it, I should probably spend the rest of my evening coaxing out the last bits of relaxation. So, I shall.

20 November 2012

It's the most wonderful time of the year: November Edition.

I'm almost certain I've used this blog post title several times. Never does it refer to Christmas. I have two "most wonderful times of the year." One is happening RIGHT NOW.

Oh, Thanksgiving, how I love you. I'm done with work until Monday. I have several days packed with friends, booze and food on the horizon. There is much football and basketball to watch.

Thanksgiving will be a little different this year. We're on neutral territory, since I'm dogsitting. While it sucks that we'll have to haul all of our shit there, I think having not only a regular-size oven, but a fucking DOUBLE OVEN, plus a dishwasher, plus all kinds of counter space ... well, that makes up for having to haul some shit. Besides, KayGee and the Prison Librarian always hauled their shit here.

That's another difference -- no Prison Librarian. I don't think it'll feel all that weird. There'll be some new people, which will be cool. We've had different people joining us different years, but KayGee and I, and the food, are the constants. That makes me really happy.

I managed to get everything I need after yoga tonight (I'd made a previous trip or two), so I'm ready to start cooking. In fact, I made my cranberry relish already tonight. Whooooooo! I'm really glad I tackled that first, because I just keep forgetting about it when I'm making lists or talking about what we're eating. Of course, this might mean I leave it in my fridge when I pack up on Thursday. But at least we'll be just blocks away, if we need to make a run. And if anyone is sober.

Tomorrow, the sweet potatoes and chocolate stout cake get their due.

Tomorrow night, of course, is Thanksgiving Eve. I think this will be the sixth consecutive year. I swear to you, it is one of my favorite things in the whole world. Next to Thanksgiving and the Thanksgiving Leftovers Party, which is on tap for Saturday.

My class reunion is also Saturday. But the organizers gave us a whopping 20 days notice. Are you fucking kidding me? They've known the date and venue since at least September. Apparently, some people found out with less than two weeks' notice -- including someone who lives in Florida. Nice work, losers. I don't even want to see ... well, pretty much all of them. The friends I really want to see, I see. I don't need a night of lame and awkward conversation with people I never liked when I was forced to interact with them on a daily basis. I'd rather spend the time with people I really like.

And that is what this holiday is all about -- I get to spend time over the next several days with many of my favorite people in the world. What more does a girl need?

17 November 2012

Friendsgiving IS Thanksgiving.

I've seen a lot of Facebook and Twitter posts today where people were talking about their Friendsgiving shindigs tonight.

Maybe it's because I live close enough to my family that I spend a ton of time with them, anyway, but I'm totally okay with having  Friendsgiving and Thanksgiving be exactly the same thing. In fact, I love it this way!

Just a few days ago, I posted about a potential solo Turkey Day. Within an hour, The Boy I Currently Like had emailed to ask if he might join me and the dogs. Then KayGee decided she was up for it, and now we're looking at maybe six people. Crazy, and awesome, how things turn out.

The best thing thing about T-Giving is that even though most of my friends do end up spending it with their families, many of them still manage to make it out to Liquor Lyle's on Thanksgiving Eve.

Having traditions outside of your family is really fucking awesome.

But that's not the only tradition. Saturday is the annual Thanksgiving leftovers party. My class reunion is that night, but fuck them. So few of those people are my real friends. Why should I spend an evening with them, when I could be hanging out with people I actually like and who are in my life now?

I have more than enough opportunities to spend time with my family. I'm really happy to have one holiday that I spend with my family of choice. I can't wait for Thursday. This shit is better than Christmas.

12 November 2012

Pity party.

My mother is getting concerned about me spending Thanksgiving alone. OH,  THE HORROR!

Several weeks ago, I agreed to dogsit my buddies Arlo and Jethro that day. It was gonna be fine, because I was going to have Thanksgiving with KayGee and the Prison Librarian, as per the norm. Except they are no longer together now. Understandably, KayGee has yet to make a decision about what she wants to do, so I'm kind of left in the lurch.

Mom knows this and is very worried about me spending Thanksgiving all by my lonesome. But not so worried that she'll let me bring the dogs down with me (not even sure that would be an option, but that's neither here nor there at this point!). She wonders why I can't just drive down for dinner. Oh yes, that would be delightful -- around three hours of driving for a one-hour meal. No drinking and no watching football and basketball.

No drinking, no football, no basketball? Honestly, that's about 50 percent of Thanksgiving for me.

Weirdly, my sister wants my to allow me to bring the dogs. Yet she does not even care for our own family dogs. I'm on to you, dude. You just want me to draw some fire away from you. NICE TRY. And honestly, for some reason, it's so much better when just one of us is home. When the second one shows up, no matter which of us it is, Mom just starts to lose her shit. And Lord knows I don't need that on top of everything else.

And who knows, I might end up with plans. The Boy I Currently Like doesn't have his Turkey Day planned yet. KayGee may decide she wants to eat delicious food and get shifaced. Regardless, I'm probably making a Thanksgiving Dinner. I need leftovers for the annual Drink-Copious-Amounts-of-Red-Wine-and-Pretend-to-Eat-Leftovers party. Plus, I LOVE Thanksgiving leftovers. I need them. I will make the damn meal just to have the leftovers.

Oh, why can't it be this week?

11 November 2012

Wine, wine and more wine.

That's what it feels like, anyway. I came into the house this afternoon with dang near a dozen bottles this afternoon. Of course, I bought them before today, since we can't buy booze on Sundays in this godforsaken state.

I only bought three bottles at the winery last night. And one was mostly consumed with several family members after I was done singing and after we'd left the winery. It was fun and all that. No friends showed up, but there was plenty of family to go around, including my infant nephew.

Most importantly, I got to spend some quality time with the doggie. She was pretty spazzy, but a lot of fun.

Bah. When I started writing this, I turned on The Birds. It's distracting me, so I'm just gonna abandon this.

08 November 2012

Leveling off.

Oh man. Yesterday was a long day. I was up until after 2:00 on Tuesday, waiting on the results of the two constitutional amendments to be officialish. Then, I bawled for a while, because I was so happy and relieved. I'm not sure I really realized how worried I was about how those votes would turn out.

But it ended up being even better than I, and many other Minnesota DFLers, could ever even have dreamed. Not only did President Obama win the race and the two amendments were decisively defeated -- but both the Minnesota Senate and House went blue. The possibilities have me giddy. We could have true marriage equality in the near future. HOLY SHIT! This is so awesome!

So yeah. It's exciting and stuff. And then I had to go back to the real world of long work hours, the gym, and car repair (is it really car repair if I'm getting new tires?).

I was really wishing I'd have some time for baking and catching up on work this weekend, but I'm going down to the farm to sing at the local winery, as I did last year. Sometimes I feel like it's so fucking lame, but I have fun and people usually buy me drinks, so what's not to love?

Wish I had time to get my nails did before, but that does not look like it's gonna happen. Unless I manage some downtime tomorrow. Something about holding a mic just feels better with lacquered nails.

Now, to watch some TV.

04 November 2012

It's crunch time: Vote No twice on Tuesday.

I've been working on this post in my head for at least a couple of weeks at this point. There have been many mental drafts started even before that, truth be told.

The problem I've had is that every time I start to think about it, I get so damn angry that I can't think rationally. It's pretty much just blind rage, swearing and snark after a little while.

Today, I'm heartened by the news of polls showing opposition to the Voter ID and Marriage amendments to be at more than 50 percent. At the same time, polls don't necessarily mean shit. And people lie to pollsters -- especially about things that are based in bigotry, as these amendments are. Then again, the sheer number of people willing to put their bigotry on display on their car, the front lawn or their body with a t-shirt as absolutely astounding to me.

There are so many reasons these amendments are terrible. Messing with our state constitution is a big deal. It's a document that is supposed to protect the rights of people -- not deny certain groups of Minnesotans the rights afforded to everyone else. It's not something to be taken lightly and certainly not the correct response to having your bills vetoed.

Neither amendment is solving a problem. Voter fraud is nearly non-existent (in Minnesota and around the U.S.), and same-sex marriage is already illegal in Minnesota. Both amendments are simply not-very-clever ploys to get conservatives out to vote. It's gross and the Minnesota Republican part is insulting our intelligence.

We should be voting no on the Voter ID amendment because, as I mentioned, it is solving a problem that doesn't exist. And yet, we don't know how it will solve that problem that doesn't exist, because the rules haven't been written. There's no specification about what exactly constitutes a valid, state-issued ID. That should scare you.

The Voter ID amendment is going to cost millions of additional taxpayer dollars to implement and enforce. But no  one knows how much because of the aforementioned not-yet-written rules. How does the "government spends too much/no new government spending" crowd reconcile that with their beliefs? I hope they can't and they're going to vote no because of it.

Finally, we should be making it easier for people to vote -- not more difficult. This amendment exists for one sole purpose -- the disenfranchisement of people of color, the old, young, disabled and poor. Those people have so many fewer ways of being heard that we can't take away their best option of voting. It's discriminatory and wrong. People have DIED to get the right to vote and to protect our right to vote. You cannot lightly mess with such a sacrifice.

The marriage amendment is a little more simple, I think. It's discriminatory and wrong. Plain and simple.

You can't claim the government should stay out of people's lives and then vote for this amendment. Government has no business telling two consenting adults who love each other that they can't get married. Your church can do that -- but your church is not the government. I get so sick of people pulling out bible passages in this discussion. Church and state are separate. Get over it.

The thing is -- our state already tells people of the same sex they can't get married. Don't put that bigotry into the Minnesota Constitution. It'll make it that much harder to reverse in the future, because, you really have to face it -- same-sex marriage is going to be legal at some point in the future in Minnesota around the country. I don't know why you'd want to be on the wrong side of history. Do you want your kids to look at you the way I look at the whites who fought violently against integration? What about the people who put up "whites only" signs? The states that had poll taxes?

C'mon, Minnesota -- I want to be proud of you on Wednesday. VOTE NO TWICE. It's the right thing to do.