Saturday night I dragged Macho Man (not really, he went more or less willingly) down to First Ave to see Black Rebel Motorcycle Club.
I'd not been to see a show in almost a year. As far as I can remember, I saw all of two shows last year -- Neko Case and Doves. That's a significant change from just a couple of years ago. I was going to see like, 30-plus shows a year. A HUGE, major reason for that was my being broke for most of the year. There also just weren't a ton of shows I had to see. Throw in the fact that I actually need to think at my job and the number of shows I can go to see is seriously trimmed.
That seems set to change this year. I've gone to one show and have tickets for two more (The New Pornographers and Pavement), so regardless of what happens, I will see more shows this year than last. That feels pretty good.
Another reason for my lack of concert-going was that I'd also gotten out of the habit of going to shows alone. I honestly can't remember the last show I saw by myself. I know the last time I saw BRMC, it was alone. That could very well have been the last show I did solo.
And you know what? I had a brief moment Saturday, when Macho Man left to go to the bathroom, where I remembered why I actually enjoyed going to shows by myself. When you go with people, it often ends up being more that you're going out with your friends and you just happen to be going to see a band. When I go to a show by myself, it is about the music and nothing else. It's really hard for me to describe the feeling; despite being surrounded by a crowd of people, I was alone with the music. It's such an amazing feeling to me.
Don't get me wrong -- it's not that I dislike going to shows with my friends. I'm so looking forward to seeing The New Pornographers and Pavement with some of my very favorite people. However, there are situations where it's just better to go alone. I don't want to worry about whether or not the person or people with me are having fun and like the band. All that matter is that I like the band and I'm there.
I'm totally in a funk right now, but I'm really, really happy to have had that moment where I remembered that it's totally okay to go to shows alone. It's not only okay, it's fucking great.