Remember that whole job interview freak out from a couple of weeks ago? Probably not. Well, they offered me the job, at a considerable salary increase from where I am now.
Awesome, no? I'd be back in government, I could take public transportation there, the benefits are better and I'd be making more money. Score! Obviously, I accepted it.
That was yesterday. I spent most of this morning crafting my two-sentence resignation letter and agonizing about talking to my boss. Things are super busy and I like him, so I felt bad. We had donuts for another person who was leaving this morning, too, which made it feel like I was piling on. But what can you do? Better to give as much notice as possible, right?
I finally did it and he was surprised and not pleased. He asked if he could make a counter offer. I hemmed and hawed and said no at first, but then relented. Later in the day, I met with him and his boss. The Big Boss asked why I started looking (I hadn't, they came to me and I figured, "Why not?"), what I would be doing, what my prospects for advancement were, was it all just money and the like.
For whatever reason, I had to keep reminding them that I do have a master's degree in public policy and my concentration was in public and nonprofit management. I've worked in government and the nonprofit sector. Yes, that is where I want to be. The 20 percent better salary and much better benefits are a considerable plus.
They like me. They really want me to stay. They think they can provide a better future for me. My boss called me an "up-and-comer," which made my sister laugh when I told her. I think it's pretty funny, too. And I can see what my boss is grooming me for in the company. I'm not an idiot. But I didn't think they'd say, "tell us what you want." That's what they did, however. They didn't ask what my offer was, they just said they want to know what I want them to offer.
I really, really didn't expect this. Part of the reason I was unprepared, I suppose, is because I've never been in this position before. I've left jobs and they were sad, of course. But the difference is, there was no amount of money they could pay me that would get me to stay. Because I wanted out desperately. There are parts of my job I don't like. I hated my training, hated that project right before the holidays, but otherwise I like it well enough. I like my coworkers and my boss.
So, what do I do? Come up with a ridiculous amount to throw out there? If they agree to it, I have to say yes. Then, I'd feel like an asshole for accepting a job and then coming back a few days later and saying, "Hahahaha, just kidding." In my defense, I wasn't at all expecting them to seriously counter.
I'm going to make a list of pros and cons for each place. Corporate America vs. Doing Good Work, Change vs. Status Quo, Working from Home Sometimes vs. Not, Longer Commute on the Bus vs. Shorter Commute in My Car, and so on. Feel free to weigh in with your advice or opinions. I'm taking it all.